[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend (JoshuaDavidRobinson
)[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[] You have more than 2 best friends.
[] There is a swimming pool in your backyard
Total: 5
[x] You dress how you want to.
[] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[] You have never been beaten up.
[] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
Total: 5
[] You have over 50 friends on facebook.
[] Your parents let you have a facebook.
[] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] You look forward to going to school.
[] You don't wish you were someone else.
[] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
Total: 3
[x] You own a car.
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[/] You are happy with your appearance.
[] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
Total: 2.5
[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[] You are happy with your life.
[] You know more than one language.
[X] You own a pet.
[X] You know the lyrics to 5 songs.
[] You don't have any enemies
[x] You are a generally nice person.
Total: 5
Now count your numbers and multiply by three. (81%)
Then title this journal "My life is ___% Happy"
UPDATE: So...yeah. Long time no talk to almost anyone. School consumes my time. I go to class, grab food, go to meetings, and fall into bed when I get home at night. But I really don't sleep all that well. Then I get up and do it again the next day. It's monotonous, yes, but it's what I've chosen to do. And I'm going to stick to it whether I like it or not.
I'm active in clubs, yes, but I haven't really necessarily made friends, per se. I'm going to a job fair this week, so that ought to be interesting with my bare-bones resume at the ready. Yeah, about my roommates...one of them is an exchange student, so she hangs out with her Brazilian friends all the time, one of them is a double-engineering major and seems to have something of a God-complex (she looks down on the rest of us quite a bit, I think) and the other one has just annoyed me. If you really want details, note me.
School is good, it's just everything outside of classes and being actively engaged in something that stuff gets to me. Chem is a nightmare thus far. There's a possibility I might drop the course again and just take it in the summer somewhere else. My problem is I can't find someone who can explain it to me in a way that I understand. Bleh.
I'm thinking this is just overwhelming stress from being in a new environment and a new situation, but I've taken a bit of a physical decline, health-wise. I'm starting to lose weight in my legs, because walking to the halls where classes are held is about a quarter- to a half-mile walk both ways, and that's good. But my digestive system hasn't been cooperating with me. I'm trying probiotics to regulate my system and make sure I can keep food inside me. There've been days where I think I was a bit dehydrated from being so sick; I started shaking and was incredibly dizzy. So I try to drink as much water as possible to compensate for that possibility.
Last night, there was a bit of a scare. I'm home for the weekend, which is good. I was talking with Josh on the phone and all of a sudden, my chest tightened up and I couldn't breathe. I started literally gasping for air. Now, when I've had panic attacks in the past, I was still able to function normally despite the tightness in my chest. What happened last night felt like my ribs were impaling my heart. It was incredibly painful. Josh stayed on the phone, he stayed with me until his battery died. He said it was scaring him to hear me like that, and Josh is not someone who gets scared easily. I felt horrible for scaring him, but I was just...ugh. I did manage to take something for it and I'm feeling the residuals today, but it's a lot better compared to yesterday. It probably would've been worse had Josh not been talking on the phone with me. He's unbelievable; I don't know what I'd do without him.
For the most part, I guess, I'm okay. There've been a lot of moments where I didn't think things were okay at all. But I'm doing my best.
I miss everyone here and I'll try to be around as much as I can. I swear.
I hope you're all doing well. I love you all. 